Sunday, October 20, 2013

ANGEL’S EYES


CHAPTER I

                        (MELODY)
            “HOO…!!!”
            As the crowed cheers. Bridling, ‘dumb, dumb!’ and the spike squeaks back and forth. Running to the other side, making my move. At the point angle… about to shout… a fake, fooled the guard. Perfect timing, at one shot… three points.
            “Hoo!!!”
            Everyone cheers…waving the Universities team banner of UM fighting Dragons.
            “Jun!!!”
            Screaming my name…
            Upon… Silence took place…
            “Hu! Hu! Hu!” Starring, holding their breaths. As the sound of the ball echoed all around.
            ‘Dumb!3*’
            My heart beats… taking a deep breath…
            “Now Jun!”
            Coach screams pointing the opponents’ court ahead. Taking a step, I rush pass through every guard. At three seconds left…
            ------------------------------EEEEEEENNNNGGGGG-----------------------------------
            BUSSER BEATER… three points!  Wins!
            “JUN! JUN! JUN!”
            As they scream my name, their MVP. I must felt great now, we won, and I bring the game to victory. But I can’t seem so. Maybe this is all not right now that you’re not here, if only you are.
            If only time will turn back. If only I could have just one wish come true, I wouldn’t wish for the stars, the moon or this life. But for 24 hour a day, 7 days a week, 12 months a year, to be the one I love… Hana.
            “Forever be, I will be your number one fan. Jun.”
            Your voice that gives me strength and telling me to stand up in my feet whenever I stumble down. Your smiles that’s telling me everything will be alright. Your hugs that keeps me warm when I’m cold.
If you are only here with, if you didn’t pass away… my life will be as perfect as before. I miss you, I really do miss you, so much Hana. My angel, my Angel’s eye.
            “UH!” I whisper as the sight of the ocean caught me.
Not far, a quiet beach made me stop by for a minute. Down in my car barefoot walking alone in the shoreline looking far to the wide but crystalline sea. Breeze of the warm wind made me feel her. Her favorite place, my Angel.
“Hana…”
(Sweet piano music…)
I look around as a beautiful melody reached me. A few steps far, in a private rest house. By the terrace an innocent face of a girl I didn’t know, somewhat by her music tells that just like me. Emptiness is what’s inside. I close my eyes reminiscing as I listen to her melody. A sad but warm melody.
If only you can hear this now… damn I miss you so much, Hana.

CHAPTER II

ARIA
                        (PRINCE)
            “CONGRATULATIONS Miss. Rivera, welcome to the world.”
            I never thought that day would come. After all those years, leaving in darkness, finally I can see the world. The world that only lives in my fantasy for years long. Now I can be just like anybody else. Now I can finally say I’m alive.
            “Aria!!!”
            Shouted in excitement of Rika, my best friend, my only friend since I woke up in this world with only darkness that I see. My only sister, my older adopted sibling.
               “Rika!” I smiled gladly at her running in excitement towards me, holding a piece of paper that I guess my schedule for my class this semester. The very first time that I step on the ground of a true University, the very first time that I can be able to experience how the life of an ordinary and normal girl. The very first time that I can be me.
            “Well what you think of the University of Mindanao?” she asked of excitement.
            “It’s beautiful.” I then smiled.
            “Fair enough! Here, this is you’re class schedule. It’s a bit farther from her, DPT building 5th floor. So, let’s go?”
            “Rika...” I protested with a slight expression.
            “No, I can’t let you go by your own what if…”
            “What if, I get lost or someone might played on me?” I giggle. “Don’t worry about me now, I can handle myself. Besides, I can see now remember?”
            “Okey, but promise you call when something happened.”
“Promise.”
“I guess I have to leave you here. Take care.”
            I just nodded and smile. Waved goodbye she then walk away to the pathway with those face smiling with hesitation to leave me.
            “Go…” I whispered, smiling at her, telling I’m gonna be alright.
            She nodded and finally turns her face and walk away from me. Then I realize that from this moment I can no longer relay on her, I have to be by myself. I can’t be the old Lady Aria Rivera who everyone look and treated me as fragile like a precious ceramics. I have to be who I really am. The real me that have been imprison for eighteen years.
            “Hay!” I exhaled deep. “This is it, you can do this Aria, go!” I cheered to myself, talking a deep breath I walk alone, all alone for the first time. No bodyguards, maids and even personal nurse. I felt like heaven being free, in this world I can be like anybody else. Free from…
            “MISS!!!”
            “AH!” I stumble down holding my head. Out from nowhere a ball hit me. I slowly waved my head for seconds feels like my world suddenly spin. A little bit dizzy, a warm but gentle voice echoed in my ears.  
            “Are you okey?”
            I open my eyes, to see a hand of his that’s reaching mine.
            “If God permitted, I would ask him that I have a sign to know if that person is the one for me. And that is, he would reach his hand for me…”
            I suddenly remember, slowly lifting my head up to see who’s that person maybe. I caught myself starring. Looking at his eyes, made my world seconds stops, my heart then begins to pumps fast. And without looking at the mirror, I know my face turns red. Then a sweet melody begins playing through my ears. Never felt those before, but I know those feeling…is what they called love.
            “Someday he will come my way, and like a light, he comes. Like a prince, My Prince.”

CHAPTER III

                        (MAGIC)
            “AHH!!!”
            As they screams, running back and forth to the different side of the court making their way to score. A game of basketball.
            It’s been weeks since the semester starts, but since then nobody wants’ to be my friend. For being the only daughter of the most riches family in the country, and being my grandfather a retired general of the military force of the country and my family that owns the most wealthy and famous company of Jet. They are afraid of who I am, they didn’t even recognize who the real am.
            Making me think that everything was put into waste, what’s the meaning now that I able to see, now that I’m free, if no one wants me? It’s just still the same as the past. I’m always alone.
‘THREE POINTS FROM MVP JUN ALCANTARA!’
              “Ahh!!!... Jun!!!”
            Every girls screams, the only name and I guess the only word they know. Jun Alfrence Alcantara, the university’s fighting Dragons MVP, captain, everybody’s favorite, every girls dream to be their boy friend. Smart, rich, handsome, talented and a good hearted guy.    
            Today was basketball finals. And everyone is excited especially for the University’s of Mindanao. Having the perfect player in the image of Jun, everyone is expecting to have the trophy and claim the championship.
            “Hoo!!!” everyone screams, cheering for their team.
            But for me being here means everything. For since that day, that one accident, that very same day of our very first meeting, he became the Prince that magic made me fall in love. Being the famous guy in the University, every girl wanted to have even the seconds of his attention. Just one smile means so much if it came from him. Even a glance, just one accident glance will make every girls heart flutters and filled with happiness.
            And for me, just like any other girls that screaming his name, wanted that just for once he will notice a girl like me. But who am I to be notice such a guy like me? A girl that’s everyone afraid of be friend? Maybe, I’m born with a fate like this, trap inside a family of strict rules and a curse of forever be all alone.
           
            Holding my bag tight all I can do is watch him from far, if only my melody will reach him. If only he can hear it.
            “AHH!!!”
            Everybody screams of horror and fright. Standing with their hands on their mouth shock, Wiesel of the referee stops the game.
            My heart suddenly rises of much worry. Jun suddenly lay down in the floor holding his right leg screaming in pain. Our MVP, my price, gone.
JUN
CHAPTER IV
                        (ANGEL) 
            SQUEEK of the players’ rubber spike running back and forth, sound of dribbling balls and coach screams coaching everyone. Made me wanna scream in dismay and sadness, looking at my injured feet supported by a crunch that without it I can’t manage even standing alone and walk. 
            The MVP everyone all known suddenly became no one. All those adoring, all those screams. Now was gone, the Jun they knew suddenly became a stranger. Nobody for the rest of them, the friends that I thought I have, now was gone. The only thing that’s left from me now was gone. Up to this point all that I treasure, everything was gone.
            If only you are here beside me. Easing this pain inside my heart, I can tell everything will be alright. For I know those same words with you, with your voice, can ease and calm this heart of mine. But your gone, you left me all alone just like what fate gives me now, stilling the only thing that’s left from me.
            “Promise me Jun, no matter what you will become the most famous basketball star in the world.”
            That promise which I tend to keep now will no longer be. I’m sorry, that’s all I can say to you, sorry, Hana. 
            “Ha…” I exhaled deep turning my back to my used life, being an MVP was no longer mine now. I can’t be the most popular basketball player in the world, not now, tomorrow or in the future.
            Walking alone, while everyone just passes by me, like they never knew me. All those people that I know, that once my fans, all of them now like somehow they never been.
            “Get out of my way!”
            “Ah!” I whisper in slight pain stumble down in the ground. Like some astray dog, a trash for their sight that needs to be thrown away.
            “Oh… look who it is? The old MVP superstar. A trash that let our school down! Loser!”
            I crumple my fist, angry, wanted to face them and fight back. But I can’t I can no longer can. On the ground all I can do is ease all what they would say, all of what they would do to me. For they are right, they are all right. If it not because of me, the team would have that championship. It’s me who made us lose that championship, it’s me that for the first time made the team lose the championship for decades.
             “You deserve that!”
            They mourn, and left and still all I can do is ease everything, for it’s my fault it’s all mine.
ARIA
            “Get out of my way!”
            “Uh!” I sight.
            Seeing him like this, seeing him down letting everyone hit him. Blaming him of what happened that he never did, he never meant to happen. Seeing him, his eyes that all I see is sadness of blaming himself, wanted me to cry for him.
            “You deserve that!”
            They mourn at him then walk away. Ever since that day, that accident, everyone he knows, and everyone that adores him. All of them left him all alone, like they never knew him. Everything, all those praises, screaming and adoring now was gone. Somehow he never exist, he never did.
            Down on the ground I feel his pain, I feel his guilt and I feel his anger. If only I, if only took that pain away from him and let it for me to feel those. I will, but I can’t all I can do is this… Be his friend, be his… ANGEL.  

CHAPTER V
                        (GIFT)
JUN
            “JUN.”
“Uh!” I sought. Out of sight for myself, a soft voice woke me up from vex.
Only to find out, an Angel by name calls me by my name. Reaching her hand gave me a gift beyond any wish. A smile precious from anything, a gift long I have never had.
She came, she really did come. She came for me, just for me. My Angel…
“Hana.”
SITTING in the bench at the university’s garden, all was at peace. Were the only ones there, while the gentle wind blows at us. I can’t help thinking, looking at her eyes made me wonders. It’s so you, it really is you, Hana. Those eyes which I adore the most, your eyes that always tell me no matter what everything will be all right.
But then crosses me, it was no you. It will never be you, maybe I’m just hallucinating. This girl in front of me is someone else and never is you. Yes, that is she, maybe I’m just to tried, hallucinating, stress or just missing you so much.  
“SORRY.” I apologize of what happened earlier, thinking her to be you, that she was you. But never will be.
She just smiles a little one, and then continues cleaning my wounds. Starring at her wonders me again, somewhat I’ve seen her from then. But I can’t remember, still starring and I guess she knew for keeping her face down keeping her eyes to reach mine.
Then hit me, I then smile wide, I can never be wrong she was that girl. The girl that I met first day of the semester.
“It’s you!” I scream gladly and surprised.
“Uh!” she grasps surprise looking at me puzzled.
“…” I then became quite.
Now starring with each other’s eyes, my world suddenly stops and my breath took a skip of a second. Damn she’s so beautiful.
I smiled mesmerized. “Your beautiful.” I just spoke, without thinking I said those words. But then she gently smiles, making me smile. Somewhat, all that I’ve been thinking these fast few days, all of them just like magic vanish in front of me. Somehow her smile comforts my aching heart.
“Your that girl, I can’t be wrong, you’re the girl I met the first day of the semester.”
“Aria.”
She then said, a word, just one word. Made my heart flutters, funny it may seem but her voice and that name of hers is melody in my ears.
“Aria… Aria it is! JUN! I’m Jun.”
“I know.”
“You know?”
“Who would not know the most popular and adored student of UM. Mr. Jun Alfrence Alcantara?”
“That was then, but now I’m just nobody in this University. I’m now just the plain Jun Alfrence Alcantara.”
“But not for me, never will be.”
She said, smiling at me so pure, no lies nor pretences. Then again making my heart flutters, with my heart that telling me I can trust her, I can let my heart trust again.
I never thought that in this life of mine someone like her would come my way. Someone I called a precious GIFT.

CHAPTER VI
                        (ANGEL’S EYES)
            “LADIES and gentlemen.”
            I can’t relax for where I stand. A minute ago she told me that we were just having dinner then I just found myself together with the other guess excited to see what she will do in front of the stage holding a microphone.
            Today is my birthday and the 3rd monthsary of us being best friends. 3 month since she came in my life and start creating a world I never had before. A very different world where sadness or pain is only a myth.
            Three months since she made my world turn upside down. Making it the best of my life, three months since she came in my life, the only person and the only girl who never leaves my side even once. Who always makes me smile when I’m sad, who saves me everytime I stumble down and who always telling me that no matter what everything will be alright. She’s my saviour, my strength, my weakness, my happiness, my sadness, my inspiration, my life, my world, my everything, my only girl, my Angel. My Angel’s eye.
            “I know you are all wondering why I’m standing in here in front of you. Well I only have one reason why, and that is to give my present to my best friend to his birthday Mr. Jun Alcantara.” She said excitedly.
            Everyone applauses, as the spotlight, spotted me. Looking at her, all I can do is smile.
            “Jun, sorry…”



















“Sorry because I can’t give you anything for your birthday. But this, this song is for you.”
Music starts to play… then… she starts to sing…
TAKE ME TO YOUR HEART
SHOW ME WHERE TO START
WOULD YOU PLAY THE PART
OF YOUR FIRST LOVE
The team song of the popular drama on TV today, popularize by Juris, Got to believe in magic.
ALL THE STARS ARE RIGHT
EVERY WISH IS OURS TONIGHT MY LOVE
Looking at her while listening to her voice melts my heart away. Nobody ever did anything like she did now. Nobody ever gave or dedicated a special song just for me. Nobody, but her, only her.
GOT TO BELIEVE IN MAGIC
TELL ME HOW TWO PEOPLE
FIND EACH OTHER
IN THE WORLD THAT’S FULL OF STRANGERS
GOT TO BELIEVE IN MAGIC
SOMETHING STRONGER THAN
THE MOON ABOVE
‘CAUSE THERE’S MAGIC WHEN TO PEOPLE FALL
IN LOVE
Smiling, I can’t help thinking, all this time why I didn’t realize…
“Happy birthday Jun!”
She smiles, I walk towards her, in front of everyone. Silent, she’s expecting me to say thank you. But then…
Damn, why I just realize this now?
“I love you, Aria I love you.”

CHAPTER VII
                        (HERO)
ARIA
            I slowly walk, alone in a dark room. Quiet it is that only the tap of my sandal is the only sound I hear.
            Puzzled and really worried I don’t know what Jun is up to. Calling me in the middle of the night saying he’s in trouble and needed me. I then rush, in my pajamas, I don’t care at all. For he needed me and he sounded so. Then I only found myself in a room of full darkness, where I can see a thing.
            “Jun?”
            I call out his name then seconds a spotlight appears seeing him in front of me not far. Holding a guitar, strumming a melody, singing.
LET ME BE YOUR HERO

WOULD YOU DANCE
IF I ASK YOU TO DANCE
WOULD YOU RUN
AND NEVER LOOK BACK
WOULD YOU CRY
IS YOU SAW ME CRYING
WOULD YOU SAVE MY SOUL TONIGHT
            Singing the song Hero by Enrique Iglesias. And just like magic everything brighten up of colourful lights then, cherry blossom petals falls and paintings of me all me. Paintings he created were all over the place.
I CAN BE YOUR HERO BABY
I CAN KISS THE PAIN AWAY
 I CAN STAND BY YOU FOREVER
YOU CAN TAKE MY BREATH AWAY
I CAN BE YOUR HERO
            “I only ask you this once Aria, just two choices. Yes or no. Will you be my girl? Be mine, and only mine forever?”
            He sincerely asked, and without knowing tears starts to fall in my cheeks. And without hesitation I run as fast as I could towards him hug him tight as tight as I can enough to tell him.
I love you.”

CHAPTER VIII
                        (PROMISE)
            “MISS. Are you okey?”
            I always smile, everytime I remember that day, the day that I first saw her, the day that I met her, the day that I never expect I could able to see your eyes again. The day that I then know of whom the person got your eyes.
            “Jun!” a snap by her wake’s me up by wondering while starring at her. 
            I found her Hana, your eyes, to which it goes. Your eyes that now belong to the most special girl in my life, my new Angel…
            “Aria.”
            “Hmm?” she looked at me puzzled, wondering but smiling innocently back at me.
Just by looking at her everything for me is perfect. Like everything that will come upon me in the future of full struggles will be alright. As long as she’s with me, as long as she’s my Angel, my only angel. Damn, I really love this girl.
“I just couldn’t help thinking that I’m the luckiest guy in the world.”
“For having me?”
“No, for being you to have me in your life. You’re so beautiful Aria, and from this point I can really tell that I will never love any other girl but you, only you.”
“Then, I’ll promise you that I will never leave by your side forever.”
“Promise?”
“Promise.”
It’s been a year since that accident in the game happened. I’m fully recovered for my injury. But will no longer be able to play. A year since she came rushing for me, the only one since that day that cared and took me inside her heart. The only reason why I’m smiling now, the most important person in my life.
The only person who thought me to go back in my feet again, the only person, who made me realize that I’m good in something other than basketball. My inspiration… Aria.

CHAPTER IX
                        (MASTERPIECE)
            “LADIES and gentlemen, my masterpiece which I named, Angel’s eye.”
            Everybody applause, standing not far from him made my heart flutters with gladness. He’s now the person he never thought he was. My prince now really became the person he truly belongs.
            It’s been two years since we graduated, two years and now he’s a famous painter. Everyone adored and idolize. And now his second exhibit that he dedicated to me.
            “Are you okey.”
            “As always.”
            “Good.”
            “Congratulations.”
            “And thank you, you know all of this is because of you.”
            “Mr. Alcantara.”
            “Mr. Cruz.”
            “Miss. Rivera”
            “Sir.”
            “Can I barrow you’re fiancée for a while?”
            “Sure, go.”
            “You’re going to be okey right?”
            “Don’t worry about me.”
            “See you later, baby.”
            A kiss in the forehead before he went to his clients. Big clients that owns the most prestigious businesses in the world. Wanted him to paint a masterpiece for them, just for them. Others was famous artist wanted him to be one of them, to go abroad and be the famous of all in the world. A dream come true but he always refuse, all because of me.
            “So, you are Miss. Aria Rivera, Mr. Alcantara’s fiancée.”
            “I am.”
            “I’m Anna Fabria.”
            “The famous female artist in France, glad to have you here Miss. Fabria.”
            “As do I. Honestly I came here in the Philippines when I heard the news from my friend that Mr. Alcantara is having his exhibit today. I’m all curious about him, and for what I’ve heard it was all right, he really is a good artist. And I’m very impress.”
            “Thank you.”
            “And I see all of this is dedicated for you, his model, lover and fiancée. Mr. Alcantara is a very talented guy, he can be a famous artist in the world is he pleases so. He can go farther than this, to the bigger picture.”
            “What do you mean, what are you trying to say, I’m the reason why Jun can’t leave the country and be greater of what he is now?”
            “You really are smart.”
            “What do you want?”
            “It’s you why Mr. Alcantara wouldn’t want to leave your country. And what as I heard he turns down every offer held at him. Even mine, but I’m not a quitter. All that I want I get, I want Mr. Alcantara to be in my team in France and with me he will be the famous painter in the whole world in no time. All I just wanted to say, you’re the greatest lynch in his dreams, without you he can be the best he can be. Think of this girl… if you really love him, you will do what’s best of him.”
            At that moment I can’t even move at my feet, she was right.
            “What’s your dream Jun?”
            “Aside by being with you forever, I want to be the most famous painter ever known.”
            That dream flashes back at me, his dream that dream. Will never come true is I exist in his life. She was right, she was right after all.
 I look at Jun, seeing him so happy I can’t help thinking what if I set him free? It will all be better for him? But will it be better for me, surely I will put his heart in pain. Surely will mine the most.
But I have to do was right, right? Set him free, even if it means breaking his heart.

CHAPTER X
                        (FOREVER)
            IT’S been three years since he left. Since I push him away, guess that decision of mine was just right after all. He’s now the famous painter in the world.
            Like before I was looking far from him but the fact that he’s so far from me now is what my heart aches the most. I can no longer call him, hugged him or kiss him. All I can do is look at him from far, nothing more, nothing less.
            Walking alone in the park where we use to be, brings back the memories of the past. A memory, memories is the only thing that I can be with him. I close my eyes as I feel the wind gently blowing at me. If only I can leave in memories long I have been. But I can’t I can never be, just like I can’t be with him.
            “Miss!”
            A sweet voice from a little girl stole my attention. In her holding by her two hands, a portrait she handed to me.
            “Is this for me?”
            She didn’t answer and run away. I wanted to run after but decide not to. Looking at canvass, I tear its cover. Only to see, me of long ago. The portrait of me, the very first portrait he ever made for me.
            Without knowing tears once again falls in my cheeks. Looking around hoping to see him, I wanted to scream, call his name. I really miss him I really miss him so much. I really do.
            “If you will have just one wish, what would it be?”
            A voice from behind call on me. His voice that I recognize, his same soft but warm voice. It’s him it has to be.
            “If I have one wish come true, I wouldn’t wish for the stars, the moon or this life. But for 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and 12 months a year, to be with the one I love… Jun!” I call his name as I turn around.
            Tears from my eyes won’t stop from falling, in front of me, wearing a jean, jacket and a cap in his head. It was him, it really is him.
            “Aria.”
            Without hesitation I rush at him, hug him tight, as tight as I can.
Now we will never be separated again, FOREVER.   




Monday, September 23, 2013

FACES ON HIDE


I'm a teenage mom.
You look at me at disgust
Like I'm a trash
You look at me with eyes so cold
You don't know I was abused when I was twelve years old.

I have a huge scars on my face.
You tell me I'm ugly,
And I don't deserve any.
Live with only lonely,
You don't know I was once a soldier who sacrifice for my country.

I'm a gay.
You say I look like a mess,
Treating me like a dumb less.
Deserve to die in flesh
You don't know I did this to please my mom who longs for a princess.

I'm a lesbian.
You consider me nonsense,
Think of me brainless.
Look at me useless,
You don't know I turn out like this for self-defense.

I'm an indigenous man.
You treat me like a dog astray,
Pass by me day by day.
You don't know I came to this place first but I was thrown far away.

I hear your discrimination, I just sigh
I'm a person just like you, though I seem unwise.
But always know that there is more than meets the eye.
Just look deeper and you'll see Faces on hide.